Tuesday, 29 April 2008

Home - part 2

I loved all your comments yesterday about what Home means - I am writing an essay for English. You came up with the same feelings I came up with. It's interesting to know what people think.

Home isn't a home without love, warmth and security. It's so sad that there are people in this world who don't have a home - or don't have love or warmth or security. Writing about what home means and reading alot about different people's homes really makes you think. It makes you realise how lucky you are!

Anyway, having said all that I've been a bit fed up today. I don't know why - I cant really put my finger on it. I've been a bit tetchy with the kids. It's wierd all of a sudden they are so independant - one wants me to take him to school the other wants to walk. One wants a friend home - the other is going to a friend's house. One wants a lift out tonight and the other goes out on his bike. They don't need me anymore - they only need me for lifts! Hmmmm I feel a bit wierd!

I love my life with John - we had a fantastic weekend - just the two of us - went to lots of places and did lots of nice things. Then Monday comes - John goes back to work the kids go to school - I go off to my little cleaning job - which is ok but its not fulfilling is it! I know one day I will do my teacher training, when the boys are older. That's it Im not fulfilled! That's why Im fed up.

Today was a wierd day - my car had to go into the garage so having no car I was completely lost! I was dependant on lifts from my friend. We just faffed about together all day! Nice having a friend to faff with! We took the dogs out and did some shopping and drank lots of tea! The car was ok - didnt need anything doing to it! I was a bit mythed because the clutch is sticky but they said it was ok! Will have to see how it goes!

Got Science class tomorrow - got to do my homework tonight. Then tomorrow afternoon dog walking. Then Thursday morning swimming then English lesson. Then work Friday morning then Science lesson. I'm busy enough all week but something is missing!

Laine xx


sdrogerson said...

yup something is missing
you know deep in your heart I supect what it is............

labdancer51 said...

Hi Lainey,

Ah...home, a place of shelter and comfort and where I can really relax. I really appreciate having my own home and all its creature comforts. I do feel very lucky when there are so many displaced people in the world who do not have safe haven of their own. I am truly blessed.  Independent thinking children?  That`s only the beginning...lol! ;o)))

Love Sandra xxxx

egre328 said...

We are very lucky, aren't we?  Eileenx

jlocorriere05 said...

I think we all felt like you when our kids were that age. Seems like you're just being used but they do still need you same as you needed your friend to give you a lift. You weren't using her, it's just that it feels like that at times with kids. They don't always show they appreciate you but they do! Jeannette xx  

jeadie05 said...

You sound as though you are in for a busy week ,your boys are not men but not kids either ,so confusion reigns !...love Jan xx

jmoqueen said...

Glad your keeping busy ~ that way you can't dwell on how fed up you feel.  I swear it must be the time of year coz I've felt so down today :(  Don't worry about the boys, they do still need you and they need to know that they are there should they need you at a particular moment, but they are growing up.  So just let them go................they'll come back ;)