Sunday, 11 November 2007

Wierd

How wierd.

How can I feel so up and happy one day and then yesterday and today I feel so down. Nobody understands - everyone thinks I'm doing it on purpose - I keep trying to think of excuses for being down and when they come out of my mouth they sound pathetic then noone has any sympathy! I don't blame them coz to them I just seem a moody cow. I'm so sad inside and I don't know why - I hate feeling like this - I don't want to be like this. I try to snap out of it and I usually do as the day goes on. How wierd! I keep feeling left out - all the boys together and me the only girl. I feel lonely even though all my family are here. What is missing? What do I want? I havent got a clue!

I get really angry quick - like when I can't open a tin and I throw it down and get all angry - there is like so much anger to come out - then it all disappears! How wierd and I look pathetic too. Noone understands me at the moment - I dont even understand myself - I think I'm going mad! I think I need help coz I'm so so sad.

Laine xxxx

8 comments:

louiseb411 said...

Oh dear, I know how you feel I feel a bit like that myself. Try and find some time for yourself. You can email me or IM me if you feel like a chat sometime  Louise xx

jeadie05 said...

I understand just what you are experiancing dear ,that is just how I felt before my depression was diagnosed ,have chat with your Doc ,then again it could be hormonal ,but seek advice ...love Jan xx

gaboatman said...

Laine
Sorry you are having a tough time of it lately.  This wide range of feelings may be due to some deficiancy in your body like zinc, or some other element.  You may want to have a physician run some blood work on you.  That's about the only advice I can offer.  You do have my sympathy.  I hope you get back to an even keel soon.
Sam

sarajanesmiles said...

Lainey sweetheart, I understand.  There will be others here that do too.  
You're not going mad, but you maybe do need a little help.
Make an appointment with your doctor, tomorrow.
If this is depression, they will be able to help you.
If you had a headache, you would take something to feel better wouldn't you?
This is no different.
Have a Sara Sara ((((( hug ))))).
I am thinking of you, and am here if need to unload.
Sara Sara   xxx

ukgal36 said...

I don't know how old you are but I can certainly relate to a lot of these feelings..it sounds like hormones...I have been on an emotional rollercoaster all year myself..I promise you you are not going mad...a lot of us feel like this..it is horrible...there is help available once you get the right diagnosis..either hormones or depression but certainly not madness...
hang in there dear heart...we are all here for you...
Lyn

jmoqueen said...

Awwwww lainey (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))) my friend is going through a similiar thing at the moment, so you are not alone xx  If you want to talk about anything I am here for you xx Just keep focusing on the positive things and try not to feel so bad for yourself when you can't do things.............that is just life!!  I know saying it is easier than doing it but like I said we are here for you xx

Jenny

http://journals.aol.co.uk/Jmoqueen/MyLife

haileen2003 said...

We do understand Laine, it's Life Im afraid. I'm down a lot of the time, due to my poor health, but then you hear of others much worse of than yourself. make the most of the 'Good Days' is what I try to do. You have so many Friends on here wishing you well.
Chin up.....(((Lainey)))
Aileen...X

cherry2sweet2eat said...

i know what you mean i go through that sometimes and i go to therapy it helps most of the time to help see whats the problem you cant find the problem until someone shows you yourself lol.