How can I feel so up and happy one day and then yesterday and today I feel so down. Nobody understands - everyone thinks I'm doing it on purpose - I keep trying to think of excuses for being down and when they come out of my mouth they sound pathetic then noone has any sympathy! I don't blame them coz to them I just seem a moody cow. I'm so sad inside and I don't know why - I hate feeling like this - I don't want to be like this. I try to snap out of it and I usually do as the day goes on. How wierd! I keep feeling left out - all the boys together and me the only girl. I feel lonely even though all my family are here. What is missing? What do I want? I havent got a clue!
I get really angry quick - like when I can't open a tin and I throw it down and get all angry - there is like so much anger to come out - then it all disappears! How wierd and I look pathetic too. Noone understands me at the moment - I dont even understand myself - I think I'm going mad! I think I need help coz I'm so so sad.