Thursday, 3 January 2008

Back at work

Hi everyone.

Well I'm back at work - Crowhurst Park - that is.

When I worked at the school, Robsack Wood, I always dreaded going in - everyday I would moan and everyday I would feel nervous and didn't like it - but something kept me going and part of me still wanted to work there.  Now I go back to my silly ole cleaning job and I love it! I get up all happy, I go into work with no problem - I dont moan and Im so very very happy! What does this mean?

I'm still in a dilema whether to go back to the school next week on a voluntary basis - or just cut my ties with the school altogether.  It could be that I just didnt like being in that particular school - I might be better in a different school.  I wanted to do so well there - it was familiar to me - my children were there - Im a governor there.  I wanted to be a teacher there - but I hated every day - I loved the children though - really loved them.  But, you felt like you were treading on egg shells all the time - being watched and being judged all the time. Wondering if you were doing the right thing or not.  Also the way I was treated on the last day sort of tells me that that particular person would not be willing to support me in my teacher training.

I think the best thing for me to do is not go back there at all and try find another school or find something else to do!  Im going to work at Crowhurst for the next couple of months at least.  What can I do? What can I be? I've got a degree! Anyway, the most exciting thing is that I have decided I want to be happy and I will only take a job that makes me happy. I was so so ill working at the school - I really dont want to feel like that again.

Cleaning me lodges again tomorrow - I loves it!! YAY Am I mad???

Love Laine xxxxxxxx

12 comments:

sdrogerson said...

nope it all makes sense
walk away from school
take your time
it will jump out at you one day

sarajanesmiles said...

I agree with our Stuart hon.
You HAVE to be happy in your work... you spend such alot of time there.
Glad you're happy again Lainey Laine.
I may send you another curly poo in celebration of that :o)
Sara   xxx

jeadie05 said...

No you are not mad at all ,Happiness comes before anything ,and as Stuart says to right job will happen ,but think its a good idea to leave the other school ,its their loss ...love Jan xx

labdancer51 said...

Hi Laine,

If you dread going to work that particular school must be wrong for you. There`s nothing wrong with the cleaning job but I`m sure teaching is the job for you. There has to be a job with supportive staff and a nice atmosphere, just you keep on looking and it will turn up.  Happy New Year. :o)


Love Sandra xxxx

aniracj said...

I've had that dread feeling before with a job and it is not nice!!! I even had it when I was with my ex and I dreaded going home, definitely not good!! Just do jobs that make you happy sweetheart, that is the most important thing! love Joan

cherry2sweet2eat said...

no your not crazy you just want to go back up to the norm.

haileen2003 said...

Hello! Laine
I'm retired now.....but you have to ENJOY the job, and not hate getting up in the morning.Something will turn up I'm sure that needs your Qualifications.
Thanks for your 'visit'
Aileen....X
http://journals.aol.co.uk/haileen2003/wishing-and-hoping

tellsg said...

Laine, so glad you came and commented because I thought you had stopped putting entries on and then followed the link and found out all that has been going on.  I have put the alerts on again, gawd knows how I lost your link.  I was sorry to hear how the school had treated you but sod them, you'll find something much nicer and more suited to you I'm sure.  It seems like the deputy head was a cow and how nasty of her not to be nicer to you.  Anyway, I am wishing you a very happy new year and am in awe at how brave you were to go up to London on New Year's Eve, there was me watching it on the telly and not realising my mate was there.  Hugs, Tells xx

egre328 said...

Not all schools are the same.......glad you are happy in your old job, but don't forget to follow that dream.  Happy New Year (again).   Eileenx

ally123130585918 said...

Laine you do whatever makes you happy ~ there is nothing worse than having a job that makes you feel ill or unhappy ~ I know there will be something out there that suits you fine ~ Have aHappy New Year ~ Ally x

madcobug said...

If you didn't like to work there then you are doing the best thing for you. Maybe another jog opening will come in a school you will like. Helen

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

I hope you find a place that makes you happy!  Happiness after all is the key to life.  Wishing you and your family the best year ever!  Hugs,TerryAnn