Monday, 17 September 2007

Not feeling so good

Im sorry I havent been round your journals - I do feel guilty about that - Ive not turned my alerts back on yet! Smack wrists!!

Im not really loving my job at the moment. It's hard! We have had training today - advise on how to be strict and not let the kids get to us! We have to let them know who the adult is! Also to keep being professional and not to be too friendly! I think Im guilty of being too friendly! Im not good at telling them off!  I find it very hard! I started today all day and the class Im in at the end of the day has several children who back-chat and are just plain rude! The teacher is not very strict so it is hard for me to be strict too as I dont seem to have her back-up. I'm not sure what to do! Anyway, I have to keep going and give it my best shot - I cant give up just after two weeks!  I just feel like Ive got butterflies all the time and don't want to go! I hope it gets better but Ive a horrible feeling it will get worse first!

Sorry Im not being a good journal friend at the moment!

Laine xxxx

9 comments:

jeadie05 said...

Im sure it will get better when you have been there a bit longer ,its all so new and you have aimed for this for so long ....love Jan xx

sarajanesmiles said...

I will smack your wrists!
Only 'cause you feel guilty when there is no need though.
Stop that now :o)
Journals will all still be here when you have more time hon.

I hope that the stuff at the school gets easier with time Lainey.

Leaves you a ((((( 'cause you ARE a lovely friend )))))

Sara   xxx

sdrogerson said...

you are still finding your feet give it time

cherry2sweet2eat said...

its like shoes when you put a new pair on you have to get used to wearing them like breaking them in. Eventually you will get stronger its nothing wrong with being a little strict on them they need it.

aniracj said...

It is hard to be strict all the time, plus it does not help if you have someone that is not as strict as she should be. But then again Kids do not always respond to 'strict' as they think you are not nice!!! I sometimes think it is best to be firm but fair and understanding.......the kids come round to that better sometimes because they then feel they can approach/talk to you without any stern response! I bet if they were not in a group situation they would be completely different! Hang in there sweetheart, you will shine through I am sure! Love, Joan

egre328 said...

Oh, it's early days, you will get there!  Don't worry.  Eileenx

tellsg said...

Aw its early days yet at work, the kids sound like they are testing to see how far you can go.  Ask for all the courses you can get ... You'll be fine.  Hugs, Tells x

getmeslippers said...

I think it is very normal to feel like you do.  I am sure it is tough, give your self a couple of terms to see if you settle down and develop that little bit of authority and distance that you need.  If you need to sort a cheeky kid out, then take it all the way, no matter how petty and then they will recognise that you mean business and that you are consistant, they will know where they stand with you.  If you don't get happy vibes then you need to do something else, ya gotta be happy at work.

sarajanesmiles said...

Message from Lainey...

She's not reading or writing journals at the moment, she's having a bit of a rough time of it.  Wants me to tell you that she's missing you all though, that she's still here, just is feeling sad right now.  Send her happy thoughts peoples.

Sara   x